Friday, November 13, 2009

Busines

“Then indecision brings its own delays,
And days are lost lamenting o'er lost days.
Are you in earnest? Seize this very minute;
What you can do, or dream you can, begin it;
Boldness has genius, power and magic in it.”
~Johann Wolfgang von Goethe

The problem with bookstores,
is that they are full of unknowns.
See our bookshelf at home is full of familiar faces;
just by glancing at the spines I could tell you the stories lying quietly within as well
as a multitude of random quotes,
[if you're thinking of clearing out,
it may be a while before you see food again.]
but a bookstore...
it's pretty much a house of rectangular prisms
each trying to advertise their interiors with pretty fonts and well written blurbs
all of them extroverted, none of them friendly.
Purchase is permanent.
Choose as you will.

By the way, the second 's' was left off the title on purpose. It's a riddle, like
Stand
_____
I

guessguessguess

Sunday, November 8, 2009

It's music I tell you

"Poor little Maggie sat down, with all the music chased out of her soul, and the seven small demons all in again."

Yesterday afternoon was the annual keyboard concert, which all the keyboard kids in our music school + guitarists/violinists/classical people roped into performing play in every year.
I fell into the last category, so I played Debussy's Arabesque 1 like last time.. it went a bit better than before. but not much better. lol well at least mum didn't notice that I made any mistakes.
At least half the kids are <10
but
the good thing about keyboards is that all the background sequences and SFX and stuff fill in quite a lot, so all the lil' ones playing with two fingers sound cute
haha
My favourites were the 'old mcdonald jazz version' trio, cos' one of the girls had her keyboard set on some brassy instrument thingy, sounded like a duck quack
and the 'yankee doodle variations' duet. it was really energetic. reminded me of the chocobo song

The audience was a bit... lol it was entirely comprised of teachers, parents and performers
They started applauding before I finished playing, and if you've ever heard the piece, you'll know it's not one of those "hmm sounds like the end.. oh wait she's still playing" sort of pieces
And there was this girl playing violin
Audience started applauding immediately after she finished playing even though the accompianist was still playing the closing bars
I was like
...
*starts clapping for the accompianist*
xD
Anyway, it was good =]

Monday, November 2, 2009

A miniature disagreement

"Say the word and I would take you to the ends of the earth to-morrow."
"Oh, do, do! Let's go to Rome!"

***
Cheese-grater, Spatula and Tongs were best friends in Mrs Choppingboard's junior senior class. They had heaps of fun together and hung out together every lunchtime. However, Mrs Choppingboard had an unfortunate habit of making the young utensils work in pairs. Whenever this happened, one of the friends would have to pair up with another utensil.

It was now June and thus far Cheese-grater had somehow managed to pair up with either Spatula or Tongs all year without ever having to find another partner, so when Mrs Choppingboard announced the newest assignment, "Colour in the picture of Wok at the beach", Spatula and Tongs agreed to work together.

Cheese-grater was most unhappy when she heard this.
"No," she said, "You can go with me, Tongs."
"We've already decided," said Spatula, irate.
"But Tongs would rather work with me, wouldn't you?" said Cheese-grater.
"No she wouldn't."
"Yes she would."
"Tongs, who do you want to work with?" said Spatula.
Poor Tongs clinked a little under the force of their glares and muttered, "Spatula."
Spatula smiled; the matter was settled.

"OI, KETTLE," yelled Cheese-grater. "Spatula needs a partner, could you pair up with her?"
"What!" exclaimed Spatula indignantly, but Kettle beamed. She hadn't had a partner since the incident where she had accidentally sat on Plastic-Fork. Kettle lumbered over happily. She tripped over her extension cord, spilling her contents - recently boiled, 96 degrees Celsius water - onto Cheese-grater, Spatula and Tongs.

[Moral: If you're carrying hot water, don't forget to shout GUAN SOY]

True story with name changes, except for the bit about Kettle's... accidents. haha

Saturday, October 31, 2009

Hello

When it comes to love, do you:

protect your heart (51%)
take the chance (49%)

I came across this poll in deviantart (approx. 1400 voters, if you're curious). There should be a moral there but I can't seem to find one ><

It's been a while since I last updated with something directly related to my life. It's all been Chococat and Totoro and silhouette boy [who didn't need a name that was just going to disappear with him, anyway.]

What have I been doing recently anyway?
I did five and a half hours of maths yesterday, that's something.
I tried to kill the aphids on my sunflower... it's dying ): and using lemon juice and stuff doesn't seem to be working.
I repotted Afro and Silvester (yes, I name my plants, I'm that normal) .. Afro is bridal veil and Silvester is that silver-striped green and purple leafed plant, same species that *someone* put in the watering can xD because they're both from cuttings, they're growing really fast

ok and I thought I was going to do more life post, but this quiz is actually really original so I'm going to do it:

THREE WAYS I AM STILL A KID:
1. The Weekenders is one of my favourite TV shows.
2. The bookshelves in my room contain soft toys and not books.
3. I find it amusing when people fall for "spell pig backwards and add 'like a waterfall'"

THREE WAYS I AM ALREADY OLD:
1. People think of me as 'mature'
2. I play bowls
3. I have wrinkles all over my palms, so my fingerprints are always flawed =P

THREE THINGS I WANT TO DO:
1. Succeed in everything I do
2. Travel
3. Be perpetually happy

THREE WAYS THAT I'M A STEREOTYPICAL "BOY"
1. I like the colour blue more than the colour pink
2. I get called insensitive a lot (sorry, I'm just struggling to think of anything here)
3. Most of my trackpants are Y-fronts (hand-me-downs from my brother xD)

THREE WAYS THAT I'M A STEREOTYPICAL "GIRL"
1. I know nothing about cars
2. I will avoid getting muddy if I can help it
3. I like learning new ways to do my hair

THREE NEW THINGS YOU WANT TO TRY IN THE NEXT 12 MONTHS
1. Driving (if anyone will let me lol)
2. Join something spontaneously
3. Surviving the first half of next year

THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. My memories
2. I forgive fairly easily
3. I can eat moderately hot curry

THREE THINGS YOU DISLIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. I'm unco
2. I'm shy to the point of silent with some strangers
3. and I daydream/flashback too much.

THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE:
1. Malaysian chinese
2. Singapore
3. Taiwan

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
1. Losing family/friends
2. scary movies
3. pure darkness

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
1. My glasses
2. food/water
3. waking up at some point in the day

THREE THINGS YOU JUST CAN'T DO:
1. Cry on cue
2. Whistle
3. Build card towers

THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING:
1. I
2. don't
3. know

TEN things you wish you could say to ten people right now: (no specific order)
1. You told me I looked really bored on Thursday, and I wasn't actually bored but I never said that, but I was being depressing being so silent wasn't I. sorry.
2. How come you're allowed to yell and I'm not?
3. You listen as well as you speak, you know that? Thank you.
4. You gave it to me for safekeeping.
"Look after it," you said, although you were so shy, you couldn't make anything sound like an imperative.
Look after it for five minutes, and I couldn't even do that.
True, I didn't break it. But I should've known better than to trust him.
And I never told you what happened, and you never asked.
You weren't even angry at me. You just looked at the shards lying quietly on the floor and said, "It's okay."
Sif.
5. You thanked me for saving you back then, but really, you in your own way are also a superhero.
6. The last time I checked, I wasn't rectangular and made of flat white sheets, so please don't treat me like a solution book. [But I'm happy to help.]
7. I have no excuse, but then, you already knew that.
8. I'm worried that I'm getting LCLY. That's one of the reasons. Would you call that an alterior motive?
9. The older I get, the less there is to guide my moral compass. The guiding field, so strong in childhood, is fading and I don't know what to do. And you look down on me for it; why shouldn't you? Indecision is excruciating.
10. What am I going to do without you?

EIGHT ways to win my heart
1. Talk to me
2. Listen to me
3. Accept me for who I am
4. Be nice to my friends/family
5. Teach me things
6. Make me laugh
7. what
8. else?

ELEVEN people who mean a lot to you (In no order):
1. My brother
2. My mum
3. My dad
4. Weezor
5. YJ
6. Lainey
7. Bernz
8. Stebbles
9. Sunny
10. Ji
11. I'M OUT OF ROOM :C

FIVE things that cross your mind a lot
1. What am I going to do when I grow up? and other future-y things
2. memories
3. asdf*&^ I have to ____
4. shut up and concentrate (conscience talking)
5. What time is it?

FOUR things you do before you fall asleep:
1. check windows are closed
2. set alarm
3. say goodnight to other people
4. close eyes

THREE songs that mean something to you:
1. Stand Up - The Feelers (because of 62008)
2. Friends Forever - Vitamin C
3. Yi Sheng Jue Wang - Hon Jun Yang (I Not Stupid 2 theme song)

TWO confessions:
1. I like the curve of peoples' cheeks that you can see when you sit behind them and they're smiling, no matter who the person is.
2. I never get over how nice it is that glasses and contacts give the world clarity. Thank you physics of refraction xP

ONE thing you're thinking about right now:
1. In typical Sunday night style, I have my weekend's worth of homework to do.

Do you have a busy weekend coming up?:
Next Saturday's gonna be pretty busy, but not Sunday.

Does it make you mad when people stare?
Depends why they're staring lol but usually no

How did you get your last bruise?:
Playing soccer indoors - i think the junior gym hates me haha

What are you doing Thursday?:
School and piano

Who is your last text message from?:
My dad

Do you feel awkward when strangers say hi to you?
Not really. Unless they're creepy.

What do you find most beautiful?
wow. deep question to finish off eh.
i don't know.. I'm figuring things out as I go.

This took much longer than expected. Much much longer.
Maaan this ended up being a monster post.

Saturday, October 24, 2009

Cease to exist

Death will take your breath away.

Thursday, October 15, 2009

FEMALE SURVEY

DON'T CHICKEN OUT, GIRLS!

Does your Facebook password have to do with a boy?
No

What's one thing a guy can do to make you like them?
Talk to me. not joking lol I'll never get to know them if they don't

Are you a girly girl?
Not really

Do you enjoy drama?
Not in real life.. or at least, not when I'm involved haha

Did you dress up on Halloween?
Never celebrated Halloween, except for giving candy to the few kids who could be bothered walking down our driveway. Actually I think those kids got scared away by the neighbour's awesome Rottweiler. So only the neighbour's kid got candy. Ok anyway, no.

How many guys will read this just because it says "FEMALE SURVEY"?
None lol

Can you put on mascara without opening your mouth?
Yup

Have you ever been called a bad influence?
No lol but same as Bernie, bad influences influence me xD

Do you think you're pretty, honestly?
Most of the time, no

Eyeliner or mascara?
don't care

American Eagle or Hollister?
what?

Heels or flats?
Flats, can't walk in heels xD

Skirts or jeans?
depends on situation. but probably jeans.

Straight or curly hair?
straight? its what i naturally have anyway

Hoops or dangling earrings?
ears not pierced

Have you ever had your heart broken?
ehh not really

Do you prefer light or dark haired guys?
dark? iono

Do you like your life?
usually

Ever walked into the guy's bathroom?
yeah

Have you ever jumped in the pool with your clothes on
survival swimming lol

Have you ever cried yourself to sleep?
no, i don't get how that works

Have you ever not been able to get someone off of your mind?
yes

Do you ever wish you were famous?
no

Contacts or Glasses?
depends.. contacts are kind of fiddly, but look better, for me haha

Good cook or take you out a lot?
Good cook

Funny or Serious?
Funny, but serious when they have to be

Cute or Hot?
Cute.

Long or short hair?
Short-ish

Smoker or non-smoker?
non-smoker definitely

Tall or short?
normal?

When is the last time you were in a photo booth taking pictures with friend?
uhmmm last summer i think it was, with winnie laina and yuj'.

Have you ever seen someone you knew and purposely avoided seeing them?
Yes

On average what do you think you cry about the most?
just general what's-the-point-of-life depressedness

Who was the last guy you talked to?
Brother

Do you think best friends can be replaced?
I don't think you can replace friends at all. Especially best friends. Everyone's different. You can get new friends but they won't be the same

Does the last person you held hands with mean a lot?
I can't remember who that was... it's been a while

Do you think you have made a difference in anyone's life?
Hopefully

Which of your friends is the easiest to talk to?
Lots of people.. I talk to everyone about different things.

What friend do you tell the most?
See above

Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with?
Brother

Where's the weirdest place you changed your clothes at?
in the car? that's all that comes to mind atm

Are you going anywhere this summer?
no

Are you waiting for anyone's call right now?
no

Are you shy?
yes, until I get to know the person well

Are you talkative?
only around my family, i think

Do you secretly like someone?
no

Are you good at hiding your feelings.
Yeah I do it all the time

How is life going for you at this moment?
Alright

Do you trust people easily?
No
trust for me is hard to gain and hard to lose

Do you give out second chances easily?
yes

Do you smile a lot?
yeah

One thing you're looking forward to?
The end of exams/summer holidays

How do you feel about change?
have to move with it, no matter how hard it is

Last time you got a text message and smiled?
never
'k ill be there in 10 minutes' isn't really smile material lol

Are you happy?
I'm sort of.. content?

Do you prefer to be around people, or by yourself?
I need both.

First person to text today?
no one

Tuesday, September 29, 2009

Warning: fragile

They used to be friends, back when she still had a smile and he still had a life.

It didn't matter that his shirt was always ripped, or that there were purple shadows around his left eye.
She'd tie a little white ribbon around his wrist, and he'd feel better, even though he hated the colour
representing as it did that which did not exist

They'd go traipsing through the fields, cuttigrass and all, and by the end of the day their oh-so-pale ankles would be raw. Afterwards, her mother would give them cookies and milk.
"Why do you have cuts all over your legs?" her mother would say.
"Because scissors beats paper," she'd reply, and he'd nod but never mention that
rock beats paper too

After the funeral, she and her mother moved away. But the new location didn't help, and she still dreamed about him every night, even though time ate at her memories until she could no longer recall the sound of his voice or the colour of his eyes.
"We used to be friends," she'd say to him in her dream. His silhouette would nod.
And she'd wake up with a little white ribbon in her hand

and paper in her pocket
thank you for forever
but i think this is the end




writing exercise: we used to be friends
I'm missing someone a bit. but mainly i think the english internal we did has got to me. ahem. l0lz